redvip: She didn't actually say that apostates were lying... just that they felt like they had to run around "telling everybody..." (forget the exact words she used, but she was starting to get upset when I asked her what she meant by apostate information).
redvip: What goes through your mind as a JW, when confronted with facts? What does the person who is not representing the society, represent in your mind?
Then I asked her if you were allowed to leave, and she told me a couple of experiences she'd had with disfellowshipped ones.
Punkofnice: I think you are right, about her mind battling with itself, although I didn't see it at the time. I don't really know the lady, but now that I am thinking back about it, I can recognize the times when her conscience was speaking over her JW persona. I really felt like I was talking to a devout JW the whole time. She seemed completely convinced she had the absolute truth, and bragged about how much research she had done, that convinced her the JWs had the real truth. At the same time, she was really good at getting me to open up.
I had run into her a few weeks ago on another errand, and we shared some small talk. When I saw her coming, I wondered if she was going to avoid me or just be polite. I didn't expect her to approach me and offer me magazines and a bible study.
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She made the comment a few times, "I don't want to waste your time. It wouldn't be fair to you either... " and I didn't know if she was realizing she was wasting her time (which I know she gets credit for as a pioneer). I did admit to her, "I probably won't become a Jehovah's Witness." She kept saying how a person had to come to their own decision, etc... but then kept offering her help.